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09-24-2002, 10:18 AM
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Umkay. I wrote this a while ago, but never really thought of posting it. ^^ It got some positive reviews on ff.net, so yeah..
I also wrote a sequel to this, but it seriously sucks. If you're really interested in it, you can always PM me and ask for the link. XD

Oh, and another thing..

<font color="red"><b>Please read the warnings</b>, kthnxbai.</font>


Title: To feel
Author: Nymph VanTassel
Pairings: ?+2?
Rating: PG

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Other warnings: Sap, PWP, OOC(?), POV. *

Disclaimers: Gundam Wing and the characters are not mine.. I'm just borrowing them for a while *^-^*
Notes: This was one of my first fics.. *twitch* *nervousity*


I open the door to the old safehouse. It creaks as I do so, and I hope I didn't wake you.. I walk in, dropping my duffelbag in the hallway. Not wanting to make more noise than necesary, I take off my shoes and proceed to pad on socks over to the small bedroom.

You are beautiful when you sleep, do you know that? Even more beautiful than when you're awake, when you're chattering about this and that, laughing that laugh of yours. Or maybe it is just the darkness ofthe night making me think that..

I love watching you while you sleep. It's the only time of the day that you're actually quiet. Or don't talk, I should say. You don't seem to be able to do anything quiet. Even in your sleep you're tossing and turning, sighing and moaning when you have a nightmare.

You have them too, don't you? The horrible dreams of all the innocent people you killed. I guess it's the price we have to pay for gaining peace.

Sometimes when I'm watching you, I get the urge to get into the bed and curl up next to you, holding you until the nightmare is gone. But I don't. I'm too afraid.

So I content myself with just looking at you, like I am now. I sit down on the wooden bed carefully, making sure it creaks as less as possible. You turn in your sleep, and the terra-colored covers slip off of your upper body. You shiver slightly and I can't help myself as I pull it back up, tucking it back around you.

I lean in closer and study your face. Your amethyst, almost violet eyes are closed as you now sleep peacefully. The creased brow you had earlier is gone. Soft strands of chestnut hair fall into your face, your lips are pouty and full.. They look so soft.

I wish I could kiss you. Just once. You know, to find out what it feels like.. After all, you told me you would help me learning how to feel. So one kiss wouldn't hurt, would it..?

I don't want to think of what might happen if you wake up while I'm doing it. You'll probably be angry.. I was taught that feelings of attachment were wrong. Especially towards someone of the same gender.

I move a bit closer to you. One kiss wouldn't hurt, would it? No one will find out.. I lean in closer and brush my lips against yours. They're soft, like I thought they were. The.. feeling.. of it overwhelms me. It's like my chest is on fire, and thousand little things are flying around in my stomache. I slowly move my lips against yours. It feels so good, even though you're not kissing me back. My cheeks are burning.

I'm starting to feel guilty now.. And what if you'll wake up? So I pull back. But then I look at you and I feel like I'm drowning.. In a good way. And the guilt flies out of the window.

So.. If this is what feeling is like, then I'll gladly risk waking you up and facing the consequences to do it every night.

And maybe some day, I'll have the courage to feel when you're awake.


*hides in turtleshell*

* PWP = Plot? What plot?
Sap = Extreme romanticism to the point of being sickeningly sweet.
OOC = Out Of Character

09-24-2002, 07:56 PM
It's very nice! I don't see why you're ashamed of it. It's only a kiss :D Well done, keep up the fab writing Rosiel!

09-25-2002, 06:46 AM
Kupopo! *claps*

very good. like he said? why are you ashamed of it? Ive seen way worse then that. you can come out of your turtle shell now =

09-29-2002, 10:37 AM
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Well.. most people think "eww!" at the thought of two guys together and don't even look at the story at all..

But thanks, you guys! ^_^

09-29-2002, 04:06 PM
People are immature these days...*blushes* XD j/k
don't worry about the people who say that. hell Lets see them write something better.


09-29-2002, 07:54 PM
I've said it before and I'll say it again! In this day and age, if you can't accept that homosexuals exist, go crawl in a hole :D It was good Rosiel, I dunno why you wouldn't like it! People actually respond to your threads, while mine aren't responded to. So don't feel blue, feel good that people actually replied!!